Music is My Soul
This is the music for a song i wrote about the end of the world called All That Remains.
I wrote this to be part of a song called “Worlds Going Down in Flames” I never quite got around to really writing the song though. It was intended to be part of a series of song about the end of the world. Note that this is NOT the lyrics to the song All That Remains, although these lyrics were intended to be in the same album.
Who gives a fuck?
no one really cares anymore
Seen too much bloodshed/An’ they’re afraid to thier core
they’re hiding in thier houses
all quiet as mice
and a little paranoid/of the man next door
I/can not believe/how tightly fear clings
In the day it whispers/by night it practically sings
it/looms overhead/pullin’ all the strings
making people think that death waits in the wings
it’s haunting how much we do to help feed the fire
an’ a little disconcerting to think how the entire
world/seems to be unaware of it’s peril
“civil’s” made way for the new kid “feral”
instead of trying to rise up/well, we just sink lower
a boat up a creek with oars/but no rower
you to do something/don’t stand there and glower
and when peace comes knockin’ don’t deny that you know ‘er
cuz if enough people push/something’s gotta give way
if enough people stomp on the ground/things sway
if enough people stand up/and enter the fray
then we might just live to see another day
These lyrics have a lot of personal meaning. They are written for my best friend Astrid after she passed away of lung cancer.
R.I.P Astrid (December.10.2010.8:56pm)
Did you know i thought of you today
The memories are on replay
the times we had seem far away
Has it been years or a few days
You know I remember near the end
When you thought you could pretend
but i could hear it in your voice
you giving up on life by choice
Your voice is all around me
your laughter fills the air
the burden of the past
is hard to bear
[chorus]
Im trying to stay strong
trying to hold on
but i feel so lost without you
helping me along
im crying because you’re gone
but i know that you’re still with me
by my side
so i keep going
even though im missing
my best friend
The pain was bursting through the seams
you were so tired that you let go of all your dreams
But i reached out to catch them as you lay
i couldn’t sit there and just watch them fade away
i can still hear your final words
i can stiill hear your final breath
You said “Eg skil ekki” said “i dont understand”
And i replied “Good night my friend”
Your voice is all around me
your laughter fills the air
the burden of the past
is hard to bear
Im trying to stay strong
trying to hold on
but i feel so lost without you
helping me along
im crying because you’re gone
but i know that you’re still with me
by my side
so i keep going
even though im missing
my best friend
Just a rap idea i was toying with at some point.
It’s the worse part of the game
A vicious pitfall to fame
A one way ticket to shame
A huge black mark on your name
To choke while up on the stage
To spit off some other guys page
To lose the words in your head
When the crowd’s waiting to be fed
Feels like your lung’s full of smoke
Suddenly you’re starting to choke
Start screamin’ out to some bloke
to save you / But he thinks you’re a joke
Your words fill the empty air
Too bad there’s nobody there
You’re all alone / It’s unfair
But hey / That’s life / Noone cares
The fires slowly surround you
The flames / They burn and berate you
The people out there / They hate you
The rising fires sedate you
The heat hurts like 50 lashes
Your life flies by you in flashes
Your whole world breaks / burns / and crashes
your memory fades into ashes
But me / I rose from your ashes
Just like a pheonix / No gashes
Your death gave birth to my name
As you left / I entered the game
And I will not make your mistakes
Instead i’m upping the stakes
You may have gone out in a blaze
But I came in with a BANG!
This song wasn’t written out of personal experience at the time. It was written out of perspective. I had a tune, and the words and story just seemed to appear and fit.
You used me
abused me
you made me feel
all wasted inside
You held me close
to feed your lust
misused my trust
I felt like your drug
[Chorus]
I’m not your chemical high
it’s time to say goodbye
you need me, don’t need you
our love was never true
You finally overdosed
used me one too much
I finally stopped giving in
and stopped letting you win
I’d finally woken up
(and seen)
that your love was so broken up
(so unclean)
bet you’ll fall down once more
when your drug walks out that door
I’m not your chemical high
it’s time to say goodbye
you need me, don’t need you
our love was never true
I’m not the needle in your arm
i’m just the person that you harmed
the one you treated like a rug
I’m not your fucking drug
This is a remix i wrote to “New Day” when i was in grade 10 i believe. It was a more angry version. I wanted to explore different emotions than the sadness of the original. I wanted to explore the anger.
All a-lone
your fi-na-ly gone
the clock counts down
the minutes til the new day
im gonna close my eyes
cuz i cant stand the sight of you
your making me sick you stuck up prick
your betwen me and opportunity
start givin back to me
dont come back-all yo sins start to stack
clear yo head of all that shit
cuz nothing you seems to fit-bitch
(chorus)
so turn yourself a a a away
we’re driven farther each day
NO more sorrow NO MORE pain
ITS DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!!!!
so stay away-as i reach a new day
listen up good, stay the fuck away
theres no room for you
go die and decay
things are just better off this way
better than after day bein a replay
forget this rhyme you did the crime
go hide your shame
you’re fucking lame
you never get done what you say you will
but ill give you this
your memories damn hard to kill
(chorus)
the sun comes up
(all alone)
the new day begins
(finally gone)
you’ve left the way
(freedom at last)
clear to a new beginning
(chorus)
THIS IS A NEW DAY
A DAY WITHOUT YOU
FOR THE LAST TIME
GO AWAY!!!!
The sun goes down
and darkness falls
(ive lived my life in the shadows of the light)
the rain is falling
mixing with my tears
(the pain is just too much for me to bear)
but still i cant just open up
still i wear that awful mask
still i leave the world to wonder
whether im alright or not
(my mask is cracking)
chorus
I cant take this anymore
i cant continue hiding
its time for me to open up my eyes
cuz i cant ignore the pain
i got to keep on fighting
and throw my mask away
The voices whisper
all my dark secrets
(it goes on and on and on inside of my head)
my only sense of identity
has been broken down
(who i was is gone away again)
im screaming from the pain and torture
doubt is clawing
at my heart and soul
am i alright or not
(my mask is splitting)
chorus
bridge
i keep falling
out of the light
i cant help but
retrace my steps
what did i do wrong
where did it begin and end
why am i crying alone
(my mask is shattering)
chorus
open your eyes, watch the rain fall down
close your ears, to that pitiful sound
open your arms, giving back to me
(Ka Ka) close your thoughts, live with apathy
when you come back, im gonna let you know
that what we got here has got to go
take a walk, go clear your head
but im still gonna say what has to be said
nothing you say means anything anymore,
but this time you better stop the talk and listen up good.
(Chorus)
turn yourself away from me
theres nothing left between us
every second together, drives us farther and farther away
so skip the sorrow, forget the pain
from eachother, we will walk away
to a new day
forget all this, shut out my voice
cuz in the end we’ve no other choice
you shoulda been upfront with me, and tried to atone
but each of us is better off alone
every single day is just a replay
thats another litle reason for you to go away
im ttired of hearing what your going to do
so im taking action and getting rid of you
(chorus)
the sun comes up
and makes everything so clear
this is just
what life is like-without you
and i can never
regret the choice i made
this is what it feels like
to wake up
to a new day
(chorus)x2
to a new day…..without you
He stands all alone
with his eyes cast down
while the tears make thier way
from his heart to the ground
His soul cries out
for help and love
but to the world outside
there’s not a sound
an’ now he’s givin’ up
heart’s closing up
hands reaching up
to a darkening sky
an’ as his world breaks down
he screams out WHY
[CHORUS]
why doesn’t anything
ever feel right
why is he suffering
night after night
why is he reaching out
stumblin’ an crying for help
Will he ever know
I doubt he’ll ever know
There’s a pain in my head
that’s the warning sign
of the memories
that I face with dread
There’s no love left
my heart bled dry
I once felt left out
But I’ll never cry
an’ now I’m givin’ up
m’ heart’s closing up
hands reaching up
to a darkening sky
still slipping up
hearts ripping up
I’m looking up
to a stormy sky
an’ as my world breaks down
I scream out WHY
[CHORUS]
why doesn’t anything
ever feel right
why am I suffering
night after night
why am I reaching out
stumblin’ an crying for help
Will I ever know
I doubt I’ll ever know
Here we go, another night
an’ I cant keep the dreams away
I’m crying in my sleep
cuz your not here
My fears and insecurities
come rushin’ back amid memories
And my wakin is filled
with filled
But soon the light will come
and the shadows will disperse
the pain will go away
if you return
[Chorus]
So I, I won’t run away
i’ll stay an wait for you each day
though i know (i know) you won’t come back
But still, I just won’t forget
the love we felt, the pain you dealt
It’s over now, your never coming back
The silence makes my head go numb
without you by my side im cold
and i’ve noone to blame but myself
but baby how could it be
i couldn’t see, how alone i’d be
its too late, your already gone
everyday your farther away
the pain is slowly killing me
dont know how much more i can take
i admit i’ve made mistakes
im not perfect, your much worse
but i shoulda followed you out the door
[Chorus]
